"It's not how much we give, but how much love we put into giving." -Mother Teresa


Last Thursday I experienced the difference love can make. For the tutoring ministry I am leading this year, I have a goal of making every child feel valued, loved, and special. One way I hope to reach this goal is by celebrating each child's birthday.

 It was Devany's 12th birthday last week. We had a simple celebration, but to me, it was more special than any other birthday party I had been to. Why was it so special? I would say because of the love that was so evident. It didn't matter what we did at the party, it mattered who we were with and why we were there. We gathered together to celebrate Devany because we love her.


"For it is in giving that we receive." -St. Francis of Assisi

We gave her a birthday party, and I received joy. It was one of those experiences where I felt like I was truly living. I am finding I experience inexpressible joy only when I am serving. I also feel closest to God in moments like these - I love God by loving his people.

She chose flan as her treat so we bought flan from the local grocery store (nowhere near Loma had some!). I made her a birthday card with the other tutors - we all wrote personal messages to her. Her tutor bought her a bracelet as a gift too. During tutoring, some of the other kids made her a necklace out of beads and some of the tutors made her a drawing. We gathered around and sang her happy birthday and ate flan together. Afterward, we played games outside and did crafts. We played a game where you blow up little balloons and put a message inside. One person pops the balloon and then has to act out what is on the piece of paper. For instance, it could say "chicken." They would then act it out and everyone else would have to guess what they were. Such a simple game, but so fun.

We asked Devany what she was doing for her birthday and she told us she didn't have any plans. I am so glad we were able to give her a birthday celebration she wouldn't have otherwise had. 

She took home some coloring pages to do and the leftover flan. Most importantly, she left with a huge smile on her face. I know she felt special and loved that day.

Thank You, Lord.

Check out this article in our school newspaper on my ministry:

http://blogs.pointloma.edu/thepointweekly/2010/09/20/new-leaders-and-new-insights-in-tutoring-ministries/weeblylink_new_window

I feel so BLESSED to be able to be a part of this ministry. Each week I am learning new things and finding even more joy.

This song is becoming a prayer in my life right now:

"Shape me with words of wisdom
Free my torn heart from this world
Renew my mind and form my will

Teach me to wholly offer
More than words that I can sing
So I become the song I bring"


"Can I be an instrument of praise
And here pursue your heart
So my life will tell of who you are

Can I be a channel of your love
A reflection of your light
And live to bring you praise and serve you, Lord"
 
God is good all the time, all the time God is good.

Right now, I'm so thankful for God's faithfulness. I'm finding comfort in that He never changes. God's faithfulness is taking on a new reality in my life. I'm finding peace knowing He is with me and this is helping me let go and move on when people are letting me down and disappointing me. Instead of staying upset over a situation, I am choosing to embrace and take joy in my God who is ALWAYS with me... no matter what I am going through. I will always have constant support in my life from Him. This song expresses my feelings perfectly. 

I am praising God today for faithfulness.

Great is Your faithfulness
Great is Your faithfulness
You never change
You never fail, O God

True are Your promises
True are Your promises
You never change
You never fail, O God

So we raise up holy hands
To praise the Holy One
Who was and is and is to come

Wide is Your love and grace
Wide is Your love and grace
You never change
You never fail, O God

You were, You are
You will always be


Psalm 117:2 
"For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD."

Lamentations 3:22-24 
"Because of the LORD'S great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
 
I haven't felt this kind of joy since I left Kenya. God is SO good. My heart is swelling up with love and I can't stop smiling.

 Today was my first day leading the Kids of the Kingdom tutoring ministry. It is amazing to see what God has done in my life this past year. So many amazing opportunities have come up and I am so grateful. When I think back to last year, I NEVER would have thought I would be leading a ministry on campus in the future.

This summer I was worried about finding a driver for the ministry, getting enough tutors, having enough kids, and so many other small details. But as stress consumed me, I realized I needed to give it all to God because He already has a plan for this ministry... HIS ministry. So I prayed. And prayed more. All for today. And today went better than I could have ever hoped!

Eight people came to the ministry today. Last year we usually had four. And six kids came! God is SO good! I have had so many other students email me wanting to come next week which is awesome. This was the first week of school for the kids so I know more are going to come next week too. I'm going to advertise tutoring to schools near the church in hopes that we will get some new kids. I have been advertising it at the church as well. I truly believe this is going to be an amazing year of growth for this ministry.

I want to place an emphasis on building relationships even more than we did last year. I truly believe that is what ministry is all about. Showing love. Being present. I want to take the kids on a field trip each semester, celebrate their birthdays by bringing them cards and a treat, and want each tutor to try to stick with the same kid each week.

Being reunited with Karla today gave me so much joy. Hearing her call me her best friend made my day. She told me how she was in the fourth grade now and asked if I would still be her tutor when she was in the fifth grade, sixth grade, seventh grade, and so on. It was precious. I told her I might not be her tutor forever, but I will always be her friend. She showed me all of her new school supplies and kept asking me to help her. She whispered secrets to me and told me about her summer. I got to play "pretend" with her and race her around outside. And she asked me to hold her hand as we prayed at the end. Getting the opportunity to not only be her tutor, but to be her friend as well, is SUCH a privilege. I have seen her grow and open up over the past year. She has transformed from a quiet, stubborn, little girl who hated getting her homework done, to a talkative, funny little girl who comes ready to learn and hang out. I love how we finish her homework with plenty of time to play outside. I love how she reads out loud now without me having to constantly ask her to. And I love how excited she is to come to tutoring.

Today was a beautiful reminder from God. He has reminded me I am here for a reason right now. Yes, I miss Kenya still, but God wants to use me here for now. Thank you, God. Today has made me smile and given me hope. Today was also a beautiful reminder that teaching truly is my calling in life. I am happiest when I am with these kids and I can't wait for the day I get to become a teacher.

Please be in prayer for this ministry this year. Pray for us, the tutors, to be changed. Pray for the ministry that it may grow. Pray for the children. And pray God's will be done.

All I can think of right now is the children in Kenya saying "Thank you, Lord." 

That is exactly how I am feeling right now.

THANK YOU, LORD.

Pslam 71:14: " But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more."

Jeremiah 29:11: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to
give you hope and a future."

Romans 12:12: "Be
joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."

Romans 15:13: "
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."